Had started this blogging long back but the break has been a real big one. Have been pulling through life and training is what I am undergoing right now. Its been over four months since I was initiated into this training and it just seems like there is no end. I thought I was good at software but I have come to realize that the thought was just another reference to the vast repository of overconfidence that I seem to have picked earlier. I am always made to grovel in and taste the mud and realize that I am nothing but a big loser in life.I don't understand how and why people conclude that I am a fighter or an optimist. I see myself unfit for any of those roles as well. What an irony, overconfidence has made me realize that in effect, I lack confidence. Another analogy to add on to this is that, I thought I was no loner and had good friends around me, but now I realize that I am not only the loser but a loner as well. That hollow feeling deep within makes me immediately jump on the fact that things are slipping away and the lubrication is so much that ultimately the brittle objective shatters into pieces and I am down with a long face yet again. Oh the pain is severe and the loss of blood has ceased because there is none left. I am always at the brink of losing out on a well constructed platform, irony is the word that ensconces in any endeavour of mine. Is it the Ire-on-me that leads to this irony in my life.
Pain is what I ultimately gain out of everything. In spite of all this overconfidence and optimism OOze out of all the wounds to put me back on track and make me realize that "it is never too late".
